Who would have thought that it would be that hard ??!!!
I knew I was not going to enjoy it fully but I never thought that I would be in the brick of the depression. Really!!
I don't know if it's because managing a fulltime job plus evening school plus tonnes of homework well the whole situation that is driving me nuts or it is because I am deeply disapointed by the school and that is leaving me really puzzled or it's because summer is coming, a lot of festivals and activities in perspective and everybody seems to have fun but not me, because I don't have the luxury of the time to have fun...I don't know but I feel quite sad and I don't know what to do to get better. Maybe time will help.
This is the finishing line, there are only 3 weeks left of school but my stress level is reaching hights: I feel that I am not doing enough, I am so late on every project but I am so tiered and really can't do more that I am already doing. I believe it would be almost impossible to get everything done by the time I have left.
Maybe I am being too ambitious and need to reduce my wishes? I certainly need help! I had my boyfriend doing all the "house management" so I can focus on my design homework, I even had my family helping me on a tremendous project... Is that enough ?! Not so sure, the list of things is never ending.
I am meeting with someone today which I hope will be of great help and will provide me with experts hands.
Will see, my hope is huge!
TBC...
